off colour

thank god for the weekend off. i seriously need it to psychologically rebuild after a frantic week. gia and lucre finally came over for a swim after god knows how many times of cancellation. it's been awhile since we had those days- singing like fuckin melancholic harpies to tlc's. munching on seriously good pretz and home baked cookies by mrs evans

soon i'll be having weeks and months of free time before leaving for london which im not looking forward to one bit. yes i do have an alternative it's the decision and the circumstances ahead of me that's just so bullshit. i dont know how you people do it. or maybe i’ve just been repudiating the entire subject too much that it turned into an inclination. now i dont want to leave at all


anyway i find our education system's dead bullshit. like what the hell passing or getting an A+ for islamic education shows that you're a good muslim? and history? those subjects should be fucking elective

apparently students are just cracking up their biscuit heads just to get a piece of paper printed with capital A1s lining up like bloody ants which is frankly, the only ticket to success in malaysia when you dont actually comprehend what the heck you've been learning

this adds up to why london

no im not carping cause im stupid
i just care too much that it's sick

oh my god spare me the agony
im throwing the middle finger to this shit

anyway im on the verge of quitting smoking, drinking and some other paraphernalia and the father is not being sympathetic. ive been sucking up marlboro ultra lights and it seems that ive been smoking like a chimney T____T